|"Throw in the Towel Already!"|
What do I mean? Well allow me to explain.
My blog has been well recieved; I thank all yee loyal readers. At least I think it's well recieved. I have had 2000 views(not including mine)in 34 days. I am uncertain if this is good or not. However, it is nice and I feel honored that people check it out.
I hope PWD are gettting something from it, and this is why I write it. I try to write in a positvie tone, but I believe it is equally important to be transparent, honest and have integrity.
Allow me to present an analogy:
Diabetes to me, is like a boxing match, and I feel like "Rocky" getting the crap kicked out of me! Like, ten rounds of just taking a beating. I try to fight back, I get back up, I pull myself up on the ropes, I await the bell so I can get advice from my corner. But then the bell goes off again and I am out there battling some massive, seemingly unbeatable opponent. In this case it is Diabetes.
Diabetes is relentless; it never, ever, goes away. Its the first thing I think about in the morning, and the last thing I think about before I go to bed. Not to mention my 2 type 1 kids. I work with diabetes and as of late I blog about it too. What am I getting at?
Over the week-end someone I deeply repspect mentioned that I seemed to be obsessiong about my blog. At first I was defensive then I thought about it. I do think about it(my diabetes blog) a lot, but it's new. I am constanlty thinking of ways to improve it, videos, cool titles, interesting topics, pics, etc. But... is it too much, is it an obsession, should I unplug, is it therapeutic for me, is it effecting my ability to be a husband, worker, father, friend?
I am left pondering, is there too much diabetes in my life. Job, Blog, Vlog, Networking Sites, My diabetes, My kids Diabetes, now strangers (no offense) diabetes. Am I (as my loved one hinted at) obsessed about it?
I just don't have an answer. I have thought (with a deep pang in my gut eating at me) am I doing too much?
Do I go another round, or do I wave to the coach to throw the towel in and end the match?
I know this is a crappy post to put up on V-Day, but I feel the need to be honest.
1. (Psychiatry) Psychiatry a persistent idea or impulse that continually forces its way into consciousness, often associated with anxiety and mental illness
2. a persistent preoccupation, idea, or feeling
3. the act of obsessing or the state of being obsessed
Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged © HarperCollins Publishers 1991, 1994, 1998, 2000, 2003